I realized I've been asking myself the wrong questions and focusing too much on other people. Worrying what others think instead of about what I think. Then I find myself slipping back into the insanity. That is exactly what has been happening to me lately. But, today I had this wake up call and am doing much better. Put the focus back on myself.

I can't get onto a site. I feel like I've been banned or something. Of course I have no idea why. I think my boyfriend still wants to be with me and i… Continue

I am feeling better tonight. I thought of HALT. And realizes I was hungry, tired, and angry. I got something to eat and rested a bit. I realize that it is so important what I see and feel about myself on the inside. I usually am so concerned about the outside. But, I also need to like what is inside of me. I am still learning to like myself on the outside and inside. I have my yucky moments like today. I watched the movie about Georgia O'Keeffe and I related to what her life was like with her hu… Continue

Today was such a hectic day for me. First I mailed the break up/goodbye letter to my boyfriend. I just told him the truth. It hurt me when he through this girl in my face and if she is there for him then that's great but I don't deserve to be treated this way. I truly believe if it was between keeping her friendship or our relationship he would choose there friendship. It seems like that's what is already happening. I said if he didn't want to live with me or marry me that was fine but I am tire… Continue

I watched the movie Duplicity yesterday. I thought it was actually pretty good. But, Julia Roberts is a great actress in everything she does. The movie is about two CIA agents that work for diffrenrt teams of people. But, they are also dating. So there rivalry is pretty funny. Clive Owen is great in the movie. I enjoyed watching there on screen chemistry.

I also watched the movie 17 again. I thought it was really funny. In a way I feel like I'm a teenager again since I'm back in school. But, I… Continue

A friend passed away. She has cancer but she always maintained a positive attitude through it all. She inspired me. She told me to choose happiness. That is the message I want to share with you today. choose happiness. Follow your heart and dreams. I recently decided to go back to school. I am enjoying it immensely and it was a great thing for me to do. Follow your heart, live your dreams, and choose happiness.